Remember the band Chumbawamba from the 90’s? They had that one hit, Tubthumping. In case you don’t know it by that name, it’s the one that goes…”I get knocked down, but I get back up again. You’re never going to keep me down.” The story of my life.
Sometimes, living with a chronic illness and pain is a battle. I was finally back at the gym, and I hit my three day weekly workout goal for the 2nd week and well on my way through my 3rd. But then, you have a crap day.
What? You want me to get out of bed? Unfortunately, or fortunately…I’m not sure which. I’m stubborn and I keep pushing and pushing. I get out of bed, even with the pain or whatever ails me that day.
I had every intention of making it to the gym at my usual 6am time. This morning. However, I’d had a long night. Since my CAD in September, I’ve been having a lot of pain in my head and neck that only happens at night. It wakes me up out of a dead sleep. I know it is just nerve pain from the healing, but sometimes the anxiety gets the best of me. I find it hard to go back to sleep, to turn my head off, to not wonder if these are new pains. Maybe, it’s because of something that I did at the gym. Maybe, I’m pushing myself too hard. Maybe…maybe…maybe.
Maybe, I just need a few days. I need to remember that the Doctor knows best and I’m supposed to be out there.
This is my excuse today. I got knocked down, but I get back up again. From the words of Debbie Reynolds in Unsinkable Molly Brown…”I ain’t down yet”!